Hello Bitches.

Monday, January 12, 2009

how could you just forget about me?

one week. and it seems like forever to get you out of my head.
waking up is hard to do. Sleeping's impossible too.
Seeing your old friends
and im alone.
everything reminds me of you.
i watched you walked away. and i guess thats what is hurting me so much.

fit.
thanks for the wonderful friendship you've built.
sorry for everything. U've been there when i needed somebody.
and taking care of me. im sorry to disappoint you in any way.
You didnt failed. I did.You're better off without me. im sure.

all the best.

i guess i just need some time on my own.
so i guess this is goodbye.
till then.
take care everyone.

9:40 PM
Baby, we'll be forever.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

haiz

waking up today and yesterday was so different.
for a while i wished i could change today into yst and take back all
the things i've said.
so that i wouldnt lose you
and feel this way.
im at work.
but my mind's really bothered.
a part of me feels like i just wanna cry it all out here. now.
i dun care what people ard me might have think of what could have happened.
cos they always see me as the girl who was always smiling.
and looking at life on the bright side.
now.
tell me.
where is that girl?
you used to say that i should stand up for my rights,to fight for you.
but this time.
there wasnt a third party. maybe.
cos it was between me and you.
what am i suppose to do?
what was i suppose to do?
i thot about us last nyte..
and i just kept thinking
"What did i do?to you? what happened between us?am i a victim here?"
i looked back at the days,
where we were both shy to even look at each other and to just observe from far.
when i first kissed you in the middle of the dancefloor with the song Closer.
you held my hands under the table to make me feel secured.cos there were girls around you.
and we talked on the phone for almost 12 hrs continueously.
and tuck in bed together.
when we held hands during ice-skating and you catch me each time i fall.
u covered me with your jacket in the movies to keep me warm cos i was shivering after falling down on the ice-floor.
u let me meet with ur friends and i met new people.
u sent me home in a cab and
i pretend to sleep cos i thot you would be angry at me.
for smoking more than i should.
and you whispered those three words to me thinking i was asleep.
u took care of me when i was totally drunk..
tuck me in bed cos u knew i couldnt sleep on my own and ended up having Giena's kittens between us.
And i accidentally kicked your crotch when the kittens nibbled on my toes.
and u werent even angry.
u thot i was having a nightmare and just put me back to sleep.
and im just reading back all the chat logs that we had.
take me there.
and i miss you so bad already.
well i'll be crazy not to uh.
im trying so god damn hard not to cry ryte now.
but i can't help it.
you remind me how miserable i am.
people start to talk seeing that i was much happier.
God,even if u have to part us.Let it be in a peaceful manner.
If he's meant for me,make us closer.

Thank you for the wonderful memories.
and I hope you'll get better in time.
All the best.

im sorry,nas. truly am.

WHERE DID THINGS GO WRONG HERE?

p/S: Giena,babe,thanks for everything. For hearing me out and being there.

im looking forward to the big change to your house.I'll help out definately.Oh yeah SORRY FOR USING YOUR BANGLE AS AN ASHTRAY. Classic moment sia. now thats something to laugh about. hur hur. =s

4:48 PM
Baby, we'll be forever.