Wednesday, November 5, 2008
so many things have happened for the past one month.To be standing up on my own feet and living life happier than ever.and being stronger than before.i asked myself "why?" almost everyday recently.and slowly day by day im getting the answers to everything.i wish i could just have you back.i miss you a whole lot and its because of you im staying strongand planning out my life, my lil one.i met a girl lately, and somehow our lives seems so similar just that she had a better luck than mine.and i kept asking myself "what-ifs"maybe i was stupid.i was.i hate you. i shouldnt have listened to you.i cant believe i actually thought of you as the "perfect" one.and you just turn out to be a selfish,heartless person. wad a waste.i wish you heaven but a lil of hell.but i've never regret anything or having all that with you cos at that time,u were the man i knew.then like a coward,u ran away.but there's a reason why god did it all to me.and im thankful to Allah for giving me a better life.i never meant for anything to happen.in a way,its a lesson learnt. a promise i kept to myself.something i never would have expected.day by day, the things i do are things i've never gotten a chance to.cant wait for the bigger things in life.work is fine..great actually. dnd would be held at Grand Copthon on the 5th dec.and its next to ZOUK.hahahha. WOO-HOO! haha
so many plans this dec..so excited.big event happening this dec..eheemm..25th december dont forget eh!! big day tau!Cousin coming back on the 29th nov.finally everything is falling back to its place.dating wise. urrh. not for now.definately.strange, a guy who meets me for a day claims he loves me and think this is true love. HAH.purleaase. im not into all this anymore.this would take me a lonnng time. dun blame me, blame him.my heart is still in the same condition that he left me.and its better off this way. i'll bring the scars with me to remind mein life and work harder.watch me.and mama tells me i shouldnt bother.why should i?hah.
6:26 PM
Baby, we'll be forever.
